My best friend and I have been friends for 12 years now. I love her and I care about her but I have sinned against God and against her.

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It all started on her wedding night. My best friend was pregnant before marriage so she was in her 1st trimester during their wedding. I singlehandedly planned and executed their wedding because she was mostly sick at the time but the downside is it made me and her husband closer.

I denied the chemistry I felt when I was around him until the wedding night when we had sex. It happened very fast. He was drunk and he came into my room and we just did it. I cried so hard afterwards and promised myself that it wouldn't happen again but it has happened over and over again and I am in love with him now.

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My best friend is having a difficult pregnancy so she is mostly in and out of the hospital and that means I come to their house regularly to cook and get clothes for her and I am ashamed to say that we have sex even on those days. Sometimes I feel like we are married. I sleep over at the house, we have sex on their matrimonial bed and he has also confessed his love to me.

This affair has been going on for 3 months now and anytime I want to leave , I remember his smell, his kisses, the way he clears his throat, the way he moans. I even spray his perfume so that I carry his scent with me.

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I want to stop but I can't. I love him and I don't know if I can live without him. This is my story.